Recently, my son, Josh, called from Hawaii letting me know that my granddaughter was having a seizure and was being rushed to the hospital by ambulance. A seizure lasting 15 minutes is considered long, she was in a seizure for over 30 minutes and had to be admitted.My first reaction was that it couldn’t be too serious because Our Lord hadn’t warned me. I didn’t mean to take it for granted that Our Lord had to tell me anything. It was just a knee jerk reaction because Our Lord seems to give some indication of anything “big” with my children, grandchildren. I apologized to Our Lord because I don’t want Him to think I take Him for granted, or that I think he HAS to let me know in advance. It’s just that when something is the norm, it becomes expected. I do not think I offended Our Lord, because I don’t think I would not have been angry if something tragic had happened and He hadn’t told me about it, but I would have been puzzled why He hadn’t told me. Does that make sense???08/24/2019 DREAM: I walked into a bathroom to wash my hands. I looked down at the toilet and was startled because someone had forgotten to flush the toilet. I flushed and then I saw that the back tank of the toilet was full to the brim. I thought, oh my goodness, is the tank going to overflow? At that moment I heard a “pop.” I looked down and saw two toilets, the one I tried to flush was empty, the second toilet, below the first toilet had two stools in it. I was startled and said, “Oh, my! Two big poopies.”08/25/2019 DREAM 1: I was at a gathering sitting amongst others. I felt the need to go to the bathroom. I was able to pull the curtains around me for privacy. I flushed the toilet, looked down, and saw that it was clean. The curtains opened and I turned on the faucet to wash my hands. The water started spraying out of the pipes and hit a woman sitting in a chair next to it. I exclaimed, “Lucy, you are going to have to fix your pipes.”08/25/2019 Dream 2: I picked up a phone and it started to automatically dial. I saw the name Fr. Ray pop us. I quickly hung up because I hadn’t expected to call Fr. Ray. I picked up the phone again and the phone automatically dialed Fr. Ray again. I was going to hang up again, but Fr. Ray answered on the first ring and said, did you just dial? This is very annoying. I responded, I know, I’m sorry, but I didn’t know why the phone kept dialing him.08/19DREAM: I heard a voice say you will be surprised at who completes the clear final.09/19DREAM: I feel like I was on a small boat, like a yacht. I heard something and went to investigate thinking it may be an intruder. I had a knife in my hand to protect myself. I saw a shadow coming from what I think was the control cabin. I saw a blanket on a ledge just outside the cabin, so I stuck my knife under the blanket because I wasn’t sure if it was a bad guy or not. Next, I again felt like I was in danger as I saw a shadow coming toward the entryway from the cabin. I had the knife in my hand again and went to hide on the floor next to the bed. I held the knife in my right hand and hid it under the bed, ready to strike if I needed to.09/08/2019DREAM: I saw an unfinished rod in a clothes closet. Just as I sanded it to smooth it out, another unfinished rod appeared. I saw before me a rotation of unfinished rods, as if they would never end.REFLECTION: Reminds me of my family – the same thing just happening over and over again!VISION: I say vision because I was wide awake when this happened. I saw flash in front of me a woman walking down the street dressed in a colorful stripped dress. A few seconds later, I saw Michael hand someone something and as he grumbled, it was handed right back to him.Interesting that a couple days later, we got notice that a prostitute appears to be “working” in our vacant rental unit in Baltimore. Then, Michael had tried to hand-over the folder for the Oktoberfest, and it has been handed right back to him.09/16/2019DREAM: I was standing in a circle getting ready to go into Mass. A husband and wife in our parish were in the circle, too. I felt a shove and there was a ricochet effect. The wife held her lip as if she was injured through the jostling about. I said something and the husband said: What? I repeated what I said and the wife laughed with a full belly laugh.REFLECTION: The husband and wife are significant to me because they go to our Church and they are good friends of my sister, Jeannette. Jeannette has not only “injured” me on a personal level over the years, but she has also injured me with the Church. Jeannette discolored Msgr. Paul’s opinion of me before I ever met with him. While I still hold Msgr. Paul accountable for himself, Jeannette did everything she could to discredit me before the Church.DREAM: I was going through a security check at the airport. The clerk said my husband asked for a special request. I said, he wants to be a real estate agent? Then I heard Michael’s voice call out from the other end of the airport.09/25/2019DREAM: I saw myself with an inhaler.REFLECTION: Ha! I supposed I will need medication to get over this cold. Also, I better not chance it and should get a flu shot.09/26/2019DREAM: I saw a man who I think was beginning a new job. The employer was going to help find him housing. When I saw the man again, he came from a house which was in a cul de sac around the corner from the main road. He said he didn’t like the house in the cul de sac because it was too isolated.REFLECTION: I can’t help but wonder if this could have anything to do with Patrick and him being estranged from the family???? Germain seems to think this is a permanent estrangement. I wonder if Patrick is capable of the same????October Dreams:DREAM: I was in a house which was very nice. I feel like I owned the house. I was told to go see another house. As I went into the new house, I saw my friend Arlene. The house had a pool and was more like a mansion with many luxurious furnishings. I thought to myself, wow, this house is amazing, but I didn’t understand why I was in it. The voice said, “It has already settled.” I said, oh, I guess, I should start moving my belongings in, then.DREAM: I was looking at a man standing in front of me. The man said to me: “You are AMAZING!” I gave him a beautiful smile and ran forward into his arms and we laughed together as we hugged each other tightly.REFLECTION: I do feel truly blessed to have Michael. One of the most important treasures to me is that Michael truly and honestly values me, as I do him. What a beautiful gift!10/10/2019DREAM: We had purchased two rugs for $300 each. One of the rugs was for the Knights of Columbus, but John Weaver was going to return the rug to us. I told Michael we should still give the $300 and John agreed. The other rug was folded up and put away for future use. Michael wrote out a check to the Knights. As I looked at the check, I looked intently at the signature. Instead of Michael A Thomas, I saw: Hav A Lot.October 2019DREAM: I saw a male, almost like a stick figure. I had a thought about not giving enough. Then I saw two stick figures, the original male with a female behind him.October 2019DREAM: I went to open a door. Someone said something about being locked in. I opened the door and I saw Josh sitting on a bed. He gave me a big smile and said: “Mom!” I looked over and saw Bridget playing.October, 2019DREAM: I was at the end of a line of objects. I heard that the last object didn’t need a password, so I grabbed that one because I liked that it wasn’t “restricted.”October 20, 2019DREAM: I saw three cookies that I was going to decorate. I spilled the frosting on the first one and thought, oh, dear, what a mess I’m making. Many different colorful shapes came out with the frosting, including stars and hearts. The shapes were all glittering. The next moment I saw the three cookies and each was very neatly and colorfully decorated. Each cookie, however, had exactly the same section on the bottom right side that was not yet decorated.10/21/20191st DREAM: I was talking to Tara Michelle and she told me that Lucy wasn’t doing so well. I said, she really needs to work on her spirituality. Tara responded, well, she’s my mother and I have to help her.2nd DREAM: I heard water running. I understood that the water spigot was still turned on, but the sound of the water stopped. I looked at the hose and saw that no water was coming out. I went to the spigot and saw a see-through container which was filled with worms and insects and such which clogged the spigot and kept the water from running.October, 2019DREAM: I saw my feet stepping forward. It was a very odd foot placement, but it was very deliberate. The movement was graceful and rhythmic.October, 2019DREAM: I heard the word apology. I am not positive, but I think the apology was supposed to be to me, not from me.October, 2019DREAM: I was in the process of setting up a new iPad. I saw the swirly figure to line up the two iPads so that the information could be transferred. A female voice said, can I help you with that?October, 2019DREAM: I saw a computer and I think I was going to download something, but a heard a voice saying that it can’t be downloaded yet. October 29, 2019DREAM: I walked into a bathroom to take a shower. I was behind the curtain with the water running when I heard my sister, Mary, in the hallway. I realized the door was open, so I reached out of the shower to close the door. There were two doors, one in front of the other about an inch apart. I pulled both doors closed.October 30, 2019DREAM: I went to take a sip of wine, but there was something solid in the bottom of the glass. I picked out the solid object and it was a piece of a candy cane. I was perplexed because it didn’t seem right and said, “Candy in my wine?”November 3, 2019DREAM: I was sitting at a table taking notes. A man behind a desk was across from me. It was as if I was taking down an assignment. I went to enter something in the computer, but the voice said the encryption was too long. I looked at the man and he said, oh, did I forget to give you the address? He wrote something on my paper. I looked down and saw “Chesapeake Beach.” I was confused and he said I know, I know, you thought you would be at Mama Lucia’s. I said, “My husband….” The man said, “Yes, he has won a lot of important races…..”November, 2019I have had several dreams that seem to be dealing with past unpleasant events in my life. I didn’t write them down because I don’t want to dwell on them, and there is nothing new that I have not told you. They were a little bothersome because they insinuated restitution. I really don’t want to worry about restitution. I just want a good place in heaven. I truly mean that.November 13, 2019DREAM: I was talking to a man and he said, in the old days it was a flip phone. Then I saw a flip cell phone which he snapped open. I had the impression it was a pornographic image, like a “peep” show, but I could not really see it clearly. NOTE: Not long after this dream, Michael told me he was having temptations toward pornography again.
I have decided to start journaling my dreams again.
January 2020DREAM: I was pulling a wagon and Ruth, as a little girl, was sitting in the wagon.REFLECTION: It’s funny, but I have already been considering that I should spend extra time with Ruth as she is now alone. She came over tea the other day and I have invited her to go to Mass with us. The other day I also noticed that Our Lord had not “told” me about my helping anyone lately. This only confirms what Fr. Gurnee said, “Our Lord will bring people to you.” And what Fr. Tovar said, “You are exactly where you need to be.” In the normal course of life, hopefully, I will recognize who Our Lord send me, such as Ruth, whether He specifically tells me nor not.01/12/2020DREAM: I as standing at the edge of a pool’s shallow end. I saw a baby toddler wearing only a diaper walking on the other side of the pool toward the steps. The water was only a few inches deep. I saw a man sitting on the deck of the pool on a stool with his back to the baby. I had the feeling that the man was the baby’s father. The baby fell and started choking on the water. As I started forward to grab the baby, the man on the stool turned and jumped up and pulled the baby to her feet. As the baby started to toddle away, I noticed her diaper was quite heavy and I went to check it. My hand came back with poopy on it. There was a running faucet and I was able to wash my hand clean. The baby said to me, “Thanks Aunt Annie, now I can change my diaper.”REFLECTION: Of course, what comes to mind is the Veronica story. The poopy on my hand is because I was not left untainted with reliving old memories. I am grateful for the confessional so I could wash myself clean. I know I have healed much, because it has not taken me long to recover from the memories.01/14/2020DREAM: I put some papers on a conveyor belt, which was a copier machine. After the papers, I put a structure that I had built out of something like an erector set. I heard Michael say behind me, they may not accept the copies. As I was questioning him, why not? Someone took the erector set structure and broke it apart and put it in a trash can. I was shocked that they had so little regard for my work.REFLECTION: Is this not just what happened with the family regarding history repeating itself? The family could not/WOULD not accept that they should reconsider how they treated Veronica based on past-experience and the destruction and division that occurred in the family. Now it is only worse.
01/20/2020DREAM: I was concerned and repeating over and over: “I have to get to California “. I wasn’t sure how to work the finances. I told myself that I can work when I get there and the thought of staying in one of Carolyne’s places crossed my mind. I opened a locker and saw a BBT money envelope. I opened the envelope and there was money to finance the trip. Somehow I thought the money came from Todd.SECOND DREAM: I walked into the kitchen and a movement at the back door caught my attention. I looked out the door and saw a man standing there. He was wearing kakie pants and a golf shirt. I called out to Michael as I started to open the door. I thought better of opening the door because I did not know who the man was even though he was not menacing. I called out to Michael again. 01/22/2020DREAM: I looked over and saw two toddlers, the first one without a diaper on. The second Toddler had her hand cupped at the bottom of the 1st toddler as if to make sure nothing would fall on the floor if the toddler had an accident. I chuckled and told the 2nd toddler that that was not going to work. As they passed me, I saw that poopy was show through the 2nd toddler’s hand. I said, oh, my, and went to help, little poopy turds were falling on the floor.01/24/2020DREAM: I was getting ready to file away a folder. Someone took the folder from my hand and wrote: CRITICAL across it.01/26/2020DREAM: I was packing a suitcase. I wondered who was going to watch Isla. A young boy Cooper’s age came in where I was packing. He said, I can watch Isla. As he was talking to me, Isla walked behind me. As a “test” for the boy, I said to him, oh, you think you can watch her, then where is Isla now? I had the impression he didn’t notice she was right behind me.01/27/2020DREAM: I was outside of Laura Peruzzi’s house because I clear final had been requested, but I was told that our clear final was the second clear final requested, so I wasn’t sure if we were supposed to complete it. I tried to call Michael but couldn’t seem to get him on the phone. I saw Eddie Logan walk by. Laura said they were moving closer to school and that’s why they needed the clear final. I was driving away and there was a lot of traffic. I was worried that I should have done the clear final since I was at the property. I saw Lucy in a car next to me, we were in a traffic jam. I was a little irritated because Lucy kept reaching into my car and eating my popcorn. A car came up close behind me and I wanted to get out of the way, so I maneuvered my car and ended up parked next to a concrete barrier. The barrier was between Lucy’s and my car so she couldn’t grab my popcorn. I backed up just a bit to make sure my car was totally hidden.REFLECTION: I went to confession for any time I have been inaccessible. Our Lord did not seek out individuals, but He was present if anyone wanted to seek him out. I am going to be conscious of trying to convey that I am “present” or “open” to people.02/01/2020DREAM: Michael was going to present an argument for some appraisal cases. He went in to the appointment and came back out within just a second or two. He shook his shoulders and said, “accepted.”REFLECTION: Is this about Todd’s licensure? We have a good case that his experience logs should not have been rejected.02/02/2020DREAM: I looked up and saw a small tear in the ceiling with water dripping from the tear.REFLECTION: Oh, dear, what is on the way???02/04/2020DREAM: We were told that we were going on a trip. Michael’s first reaction was great! and he headed out. I thought, oh, what fun, and was going to pack. I asked Todd if he wanted to pack anything and he said, oh my T-shirt that’s in the attic. I thought, oh, dear, in the attic??!! Todd said, well, it’s easy to get to, just on the steps and in my mind’s eye, I could picture boxes on some steps. I was getting ready to go to the house to pack when I looked down and saw that I had put my brown stockings on over my brown boots. I thought, this won’t work. I took the stockings off and had the brown stocking in one hand and black stockings in the other hand. I saw my black shoes over to the left of me. I said, oh, what the heck, and decided to go bare-legged. I realized there would not be enough time to go home and pack, so I started toward the airplane. To my left I saw a kiosk selling miniature size products. I saw a men’s deodorant and a women’s deodorant. I thought to myself, well, even if we wear the same clothes overnight, at least we won’t have to be stinky. I bought some of each type deodorant.02/10/2020DREAM: Dr Weigel walked into the playroom where Cicero is kept. He said, “you mean she hasn’t eaten anything?” REFLECTION: Called Rock, we need to figure out arrangements for lizards before they end up dying.02/12/2020DREAM: I was walking with a couple other women, there were three of us. I was explaining how different groups of people congregate to each other, but that all people are to be treated with dignity. It’s okay to have friends that you have more in common with and to not be so close to people you do not have in common; however, all are to be treated with dignity. I was referencing the Meyers-Briggs test. We were walking toward our apartment building where we lived. One of the women headed into a café to sit and chat. I started to follow her when the third woman headed straight home. I wasn’t sure what to do because the third lady lived in my same apartment and I wasn’t sure if she had a key. I started after the third lady, when the woman in the café said, no, come sit with me, I want to hear more. Don’t worry, someone else will give the other woman access to her apartment.02/13/2020DREAM: I was in the background watching a celebration. I heard a voice behind me say she’s lost her baby, but she doesn’t know it yet. A scene of a young woman probably six months pregnant or so doing some chores flashed before me. There was a man in the room who I assumed was the husband. I said, can’t he help her? The voice said, no, he doesn’t know what to do. I looked again at the celebration and said, they no longer need the woman who helped them, maybe she can help. Next, a person ran up to me with hands flailing about and said, they’re leaving for the hospital now. I said, well, is the woman with them? The person replied, I don’t know where the woman is. I looked outside and saw the woman sitting in a lawn chair behind a station wagon. There was a second lawn chair beside her that was empty. There were a couple people loading things into the back of the station wagon. The woman very calmly said, we must load the supplies first. The other person and I felt comforted, as if things were under control.02/14/2020DREAM: It was very dark, almost pitch-black, but I thought I could see the outline of a computer. I felt like the other personal and I were trying to get directions to somewhere. The voice said, you can always find a way, just call. I heard a telephone ring – it was so loud that it woke me up. The phone was not ringing, it had been part of my dream.
I have decided to start journaling my dreams again.
January 2020DREAM: I was pulling a wagon and Ruth, as a little girl, was sitting in the wagon.REFLECTION: It’s funny, but I have already been considering that I should spend extra time with Ruth as she is now alone. She came over tea the other day and I have invited her to go to Mass with us. The other day I also noticed that Our Lord had not “told” me about my helping anyone lately. This only confirms what Fr. Gurnee said, “Our Lord will bring people to you.” And what Fr. Tovar said, “You are exactly where you need to be.” In the normal course of life, hopefully, I will recognize who Our Lord send me, such as Ruth, whether He specifically tells me nor not.01/12/2020DREAM: I as standing at the edge of a pool’s shallow end. I saw a baby toddler wearing only a diaper walking on the other side of the pool toward the steps. The water was only a few inches deep. I saw a man sitting on the deck of the pool on a stool with his back to the baby. I had the feeling that the man was the baby’s father. The baby fell and started choking on the water. As I started forward to grab the baby, the man on the stool turned and jumped up and pulled the baby to her feet. As the baby started to toddle away, I noticed her diaper was quite heavy and I went to check it. My hand came back with poopy on it. There was a running faucet and I was able to wash my hand clean. The baby said to me, “Thanks Aunt Annie, now I can change my diaper.”REFLECTION: Of course, what comes to mind is the Veronica story. The poopy on my hand is because I was not left untainted with reliving old memories. I am grateful for the confessional so I could wash myself clean. I know I have healed much, because it has not taken me long to recover from the memories.01/14/2020DREAM: I put some papers on a conveyor belt, which was a copier machine. After the papers, I put a structure that I had built out of something like an erector set. I heard Michael say behind me, they may not accept the copies. As I was questioning him, why not? Someone took the erector set structure and broke it apart and put it in a trash can. I was shocked that they had so little regard for my work.REFLECTION: Is this not just what happened with the family regarding history repeating itself? The family could not/WOULD not accept that they should reconsider how they treated Veronica based on past-experience and the destruction and division that occurred in the family. Now it is only worse.
01/20/2020DREAM: I was concerned and repeating over and over: “I have to get to California “. I wasn’t sure how to work the finances. I told myself that I can work when I get there and the thought of staying in one of Carolyne’s places crossed my mind. I opened a locker and saw a BBT money envelope. I opened the envelope and there was money to finance the trip. Somehow I thought the money came from Todd.SECOND DREAM: I walked into the kitchen and a movement at the back door caught my attention. I looked out the door and saw a man standing there. He was wearing kakie pants and a golf shirt. I called out to Michael as I started to open the door. I thought better of opening the door because I did not know who the man was even though he was not menacing. I called out to Michael again. 01/22/2020DREAM: I looked over and saw two toddlers, the first one without a diaper on. The second Toddler had her hand cupped at the bottom of the 1st toddler as if to make sure nothing would fall on the floor if the toddler had an accident. I chuckled and told the 2nd toddler that that was not going to work. As they passed me, I saw that poopy was show through the 2nd toddler’s hand. I said, oh, my, and went to help, little poopy turds were falling on the floor.01/24/2020DREAM: I was getting ready to file away a folder. Someone took the folder from my hand and wrote: CRITICAL across it.01/26/2020DREAM: I was packing a suitcase. I wondered who was going to watch Isla. A young boy Cooper’s age came in where I was packing. He said, I can watch Isla. As he was talking to me, Isla walked behind me. As a “test” for the boy, I said to him, oh, you think you can watch her, then where is Isla now? I had the impression he didn’t notice she was right behind me.01/27/2020DREAM: I was outside of Laura Peruzzi’s house because I clear final had been requested, but I was told that our clear final was the second clear final requested, so I wasn’t sure if we were supposed to complete it. I tried to call Michael but couldn’t seem to get him on the phone. I saw Eddie Logan walk by. Laura said they were moving closer to school and that’s why they needed the clear final. I was driving away and there was a lot of traffic. I was worried that I should have done the clear final since I was at the property. I saw Lucy in a car next to me, we were in a traffic jam. I was a little irritated because Lucy kept reaching into my car and eating my popcorn. A car came up close behind me and I wanted to get out of the way, so I maneuvered my car and ended up parked next to a concrete barrier. The barrier was between Lucy’s and my car so she couldn’t grab my popcorn. I backed up just a bit to make sure my car was totally hidden.REFLECTION: I went to confession for any time I have been inaccessible. Our Lord did not seek out individuals, but He was present if anyone wanted to seek him out. I am going to be conscious of trying to convey that I am “present” or “open” to people.02/01/2020DREAM: Michael was going to present an argument for some appraisal cases. He went in to the appointment and came back out within just a second or two. He shook his shoulders and said, “accepted.”REFLECTION: Is this about Todd’s licensure? We have a good case that his experience logs should not have been rejected.02/02/2020DREAM: I looked up and saw a small tear in the ceiling with water dripping from the tear.REFLECTION: Oh, dear, what is on the way???02/04/2020DREAM: We were told that we were going on a trip. Michael’s first reaction was great! and he headed out. I thought, oh, what fun, and was going to pack. I asked Todd if he wanted to pack anything and he said, oh my T-shirt that’s in the attic. I thought, oh, dear, in the attic??!! Todd said, well, it’s easy to get to, just on the steps and in my mind’s eye, I could picture boxes on some steps. I was getting ready to go to the house to pack when I looked down and saw that I had put my brown stockings on over my brown boots. I thought, this won’t work. I took the stockings off and had the brown stocking in one hand and black stockings in the other hand. I saw my black shoes over to the left of me. I said, oh, what the heck, and decided to go bare-legged. I realized there would not be enough time to go home and pack, so I started toward the airplane. To my left I saw a kiosk selling miniature size products. I saw a men’s deodorant and a women’s deodorant. I thought to myself, well, even if we wear the same clothes overnight, at least we won’t have to be stinky. I bought some of each type deodorant.02/10/2020DREAM: Dr Weigel walked into the playroom where Cicero is kept. He said, “you mean she hasn’t eaten anything?” REFLECTION: Called Rock, we need to figure out arrangements for lizards before they end up dying.02/12/2020DREAM: I was walking with a couple other women, there were three of us. I was explaining how different groups of people congregate to each other, but that all people are to be treated with dignity. It’s okay to have friends that you have more in common with and to not be so close to people you do not have in common; however, all are to be treated with dignity. I was referencing the Meyers-Briggs test. We were walking toward our apartment building where we lived. One of the women headed into a café to sit and chat. I started to follow her when the third woman headed straight home. I wasn’t sure what to do because the third lady lived in my same apartment and I wasn’t sure if she had a key. I started after the third lady, when the woman in the café said, no, come sit with me, I want to hear more. Don’t worry, someone else will give the other woman access to her apartment.02/13/2020DREAM: I was in the background watching a celebration. I heard a voice behind me say she’s lost her baby, but she doesn’t know it yet. A scene of a young woman probably six months pregnant or so doing some chores flashed before me. There was a man in the room who I assumed was the husband. I said, can’t he help her? The voice said, no, he doesn’t know what to do. I looked again at the celebration and said, they no longer need the woman who helped them, maybe she can help. Next, a person ran up to me with hands flailing about and said, they’re leaving for the hospital now. I said, well, is the woman with them? The person replied, I don’t know where the woman is. I looked outside and saw the woman sitting in a lawn chair behind a station wagon. There was a second lawn chair beside her that was empty. There were a couple people loading things into the back of the station wagon. The woman very calmly said, we must load the supplies first. The other person and I felt comforted, as if things were under control.02/14/2020DREAM: It was very dark, almost pitch-black, but I thought I could see the outline of a computer. I felt like the other personal and I were trying to get directions to somewhere. The voice said, you can always find a way, just call. I heard a telephone ring – it was so loud that it woke me up. The phone was not ringing, it had been part of my dream.